I used to write a lot of blog entries last time, using a variety of blogging platform. I cannot remember when did I last stop ‘blogging’, perhaps when social media became more rampant.
Blogging, or even before this, diary writing is a way I expressed myself and reflect my day. It was until much later at my adulthood that I realised writing by itself was how I cope with all the little to big challenges as I navigate life. Times where I felt like there were no one I could talk to in terms of my own secret where I cannot share with anyone in the family, I will write in down in my diary. Especially those awkward growing up years where one learn about the matter of the heart.
I started blogging when I am in my Secondary Level education where blogger was a very popular platform. I would spend time blogging entries, decorating my blog with html codes, embedding playlist, pictures and whatever. It was like a cool thing to do, and anyway I am not in any of those popular cliques (the perceived ‘cool thing’) and had much time to dwell a lot internally which is my innate nature. Thereafter, I maintained blogs, changing platforms just to explore their own features. Of course not forgetting, I too join in the Twitter and Tumblr bandwagon when they became available and popular. Then, there comes Facebook (before that was Friendster, if people even remember), Instagram and many more short-attention-span social media networks become available. Being out of writing my thoughts and sharing it openly in the world wide web for a while makes me feel out of place from time to time albeit in a subconscious level. Moreover, most people, including myself relies on my mobile device more than their computers or laptops (ok, I may be wrong) these days. What’s worse, online shopping, literally take away a lot of attention of a person, even though I am already a very controlled shopper / spender.
There are many things I am going back to, one, blogging as what I am doing here. Another, playing games on my computer. Something that I used to do when I was around Primary 4 or 5 (played the Sims mostly, some Theme Hospital and Sims City). I am not really a gamer through my growing up years, mostly because I lose interest, get distracted and restless easily. The most disciplined thing I ever done (beside basic self-care routine) is maintaining my blog. In my opinion blogging is a personal experience, it creates a space between oneself and their day’s worth of overwhelming volume of thoughts/feelings.
With Covid-19 still lurking around, and seemingly getting worse every other day, I hope that I can be consistent in maintaining a safe, sane space by blogging, using this platform to share my thoughts and feelings informally, as well as a reflection piece that I can read back as time goes by. Hopefully in this journey, new ideas and readership gets connected through a space like this. I am not sure if people still writes about themselves genuinely anymore in this time and age where everything is driven by economies of scale, where blogging is use as a business making tool, or a income generating activity. Where the content of the writing is usually polished and directed at what others want to read rather than a space the writer reflects about themselves. But, who cares? This is a free space, people are welcome to do whatever they like / please as long as no harm is done (hopefully).
As a grounding, what I am involved currently in life:
1) Being a full-time employed Medical Social Worker
2) Being a part-time lay Buddhist practitioner, attending once per week Dharma class, and trying to be mindful on me being a better human than before
3) Trying to maintain my equilibrium after having a season of life overshadowed by burn-out symptoms
4) Trying not to hoard more things in life and trying to declutter
5) Engaging with some Entertainment like watching shows on Netflix and Disney+ while playing some PC games (recently started playing Diablo III with my husband)
till then.
